choices

a little storyboard attempt i did back in May.

honestly it just fits the mood of how I feel right now.

Funny...

Now that I think about it...since I've drawn that like...6 months ago or so...it must only mean that I've felt that way 6 months ago or so.

I have been feeling that way for half a year now. And that should really disturb me now more than ever.

To feel that way over something means something...right?


I'm miserable to my very core.


A choice must be made.

Before I completely die.

Oh the things we do for life.

everything's been said and done

'pitter patter'

the rain drops said.
I listened to their words as I lay down to my makeshift bed.
This is a memory I say. A dream perhaps.

It was always during rainy cold nights that I remember being lost.
Where and when everything's been said and done.
Where and when I'm not truly myself.

But you accepted me wholly...in hopes to fill the hole in your heart.
Much as I wished that you could fill mine.
And instantly I was falling.

This is for you, my estranged lover.
And this is the apology that I hope would reach yonder.
Though I beg to differ...

For we met as strangers...
And we sadly part the same.

old drawing that fits the mood...now that i think of it...i think i'm stuck in a miserable cycle.
something's wrong with me. D:

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Inspiration

http://nicholaskole.blogspot.com/2011/11/on-god-art-and-dragons.html

Not much to say because he's practically said it all without the dark, depressing tone i tend to put into my words when I write things. Haha! I believe it's worth sharing...and very encouraging for every artist out there stuck in a rut.

Sometimes it's just going back to the basic truth that'll make you realize things in a much much more profound way. :)

OJT junk.

Some work I did for my On the Job Training class back when I was still in college. Bad memories really, but these are the works I'm most fond of during those days.

Aside from that, since I got into some depressing fits last year around the same period as now (August to November)...I ended up doing some risky things that almost cost me my college degree. But God is good always, and he provided me with a way out from the graves I dug for myself. And here's one of the blessings that saved my college life:

Commission/Sideline gigs that a college friend offered me to do. I was so depressed then, and I was quiet-emo-ishly making sad, dark illustrations with serious linework in one classroom, and that college friend of mine saw me drawing. He gasped, picked up the paper I was working on and asked his friend immediately if I could draw some designs for their t-shirt print business. He was willing to pay me in advance for the whole shebang. And let me tell you, that payment...though i never got the second half... saved my sad butt from the registration office fee. Hahaha. Here's their awesome Facebook Page.

And here's some comic thing I did for another class. History I think...I colored it traditionally with watercolors but I never got the chance to get them back again...all I have are the roughs. So here they are. I think it's about Rizal...an artwork dedicated to anything about him...or basically describes him in a way...haha oh well...enough talk more show:

That's all for now. It's just fun to reminisce sometimes. Plus the fact that I really dont have anything to post as of late....so...yeah. Heheh. I hope you liked them as much as I am laughing at them now and how a year has already passed. It feels freaky sometimes, especially when you think about how you were doing the things you were doing just over a year ago.

If ever there was anything I'm futzing about lately...then this is probably it:

drawing couples. hahaha!

I just laughed at one of Mommy Dionisia's dresses. I swear it's a lobster dress!

Last Night..Last Year

Last Night Last Year
I was mourning over lost coffee
The sweet aroma
The strength of the taste
The power of the loss

Last Night Last Year
My drawing was about a man
Formed in my dreams
Conversing with me from far away
Promising me empty words of love

Last Night Last Year
My song was Something About Us
Because we both loved Daft Punk so much
Because you refuse to communicate with me
And that was my way of expressing how I feel


But that was all Last Night Last Year
Tonight, This Year
I'm mourning over other things
Something far more grave than feelings
Far more bitter than coffee
And that is a life...not well spent.

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Haha...yeah I just suddenly remembered what happened this November around last year...I was moping over a lost relationship with some guy. Funny how I feel down on the same dates as before -- thankfully it's not the same situation though.

Still just quite upset with how I'm dealing with my creative life. I'm in the 'downhill' phase of my relationship with art...hopefully we manage to work things out once more.

A song that coincidentally fits the mood of my drawing

amor vincit omnia!

Don't Wait Up

Have you heard of Robh Ruppel's style of digi painting? I tried to do my own take on his method by using just the rectangle selection tool and the 'ctrl+u' command. Hahaha! Mine was a bit tough to use...but I'm happy with the pixelated effect it gives.

Also...I'm going crazy over Diane Birch as of late...not to mention that I find her fashion sense one of the most adorable things ever. So here's a fan drawing...you should check her youtube channel out!Actually...no. You MUST! haha! :D

Well...that's all for now! Just got really inspired plus my sleeplessness fit and all...so here ya go. :)

"Gettin tired of living
Living for a moment
Gettin tired of hanging on the line
Wake up every morning
And I pull back the curtain
Wonder if it's gonna rain or shine"
- Nothing But a Miracle

"I looked at the clock and it was quarter to twelve
I started counting the minutes to the freedom bell
I said the midnight hour is gonna take me home
And today's sorrow will be here no more
I said

Oh, oh, don't wait up for me
Oh, ooh, 'cause you ain't gonna like what you see
No, no, no" - Don't Wait Up