Fade Out haha

Fade Away - Olivia Ong
I just wanna say hello to you
But you’re not lookin’ my way
Like you trying to act cool
I think I lost my mind
Back there and then
Oh how I let my feelings go

You see, I know it’s just a crush
And a crush won’t ever last long
No one’s forcing it, boy
So you I’ll put aside
Thought friends we would be
Oh, boy…

*Sadly you took my smile away
Every time you look my way
It fades away
I think it’s best it stays this way
Every time you look my way
Yeah, it fades away

You just wanna say hello to me
Now the table’s turned
I’m not lookin’ your way

Don’t get it wrong
Oh, it’s twisted up
Alright let’s make this story short

You see, I know it’s just a crush
And a crush won’t ever last long
No one’s forcing it, boy
So you I’ll put aside
Thought friends we would be
Oh, boy…

Repeat *

Whao…
Why did it have to go down this way?
I’ll admit I feel you when you are near
Maybe baby we got it all wrong

Repeat * x2

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Will be taking a break from anything online that has something to do with posting and showing things to the world. Somehow I think I'm having an unhealthy habit of posting and blurting out unnecessary comments, status updates and all that about my feelings. It's quite exhausting because it's like punching the air which is cowardly and stupid -- unless you're doing shadow boxing to train your muscle memory -- which I'm not doing at all...so it's best if I quit it while I still have my sanity in check.


I give up I give up
I'm letting go
Really letting go this time
Looking at you
Feels like pricking myself with a pin over and over
And I'm no pincushion to tolerate that kind of irritating pain
See you
And I hope I forget my feelings for you
That I don't know how it came up in the first place
Like an unwanted fungi...it spread in my heart
Messing up my plans,
All that I was focused on
Shattered
Thanks to you walking up on my path
                           
                          Distracting me with....
                                                                          how you keep
                                               wearing white shirts
                                                                            and those expressive
                                                  eyebrows
                                                                        and your loud
                                                                                                               sarcastic side comments
                                                         that
                                                                 some of them knocks me off my feet...
                                                                                  rolling on the floor
                                                    laughing my guts out
                                              and those fantastic meals that you bring

                                                           every

                                                              fricking

                                                                      time you're late

                                                              And....
                                                                                         well....

                                                                                                          basically everything you do
You're so annoying
I wish I just hate you
But I don't
And it sucks that I don't
Either way, hate you or like you...you'll be stuck in my head.
And I see you 5 times a week
Joy!
Where am I supposed to put myself then?!
Add the fact you treat me unkindly
Ignore me when I try to be nice
Pick on me and tease me for every single thing I do
Confuse me with random acts of kindness
And it doesn't help people think you like me too
Because I end up hoping on it too!
So help me God!

I'm giving up
Because it wearies me so

So long, farewell, adieu


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having crushes sucks ass. especially if you're me. haha. must leave you with a lighter note so here:



I'll Move On - Olivia Ong
This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality.
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here.
But I'll remember.
All those times you've bought me thru'.
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

I'll move on I'll go on.
Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along.
Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may.
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am Once again caught in the rain.
Looking back I've come so far And I want to carry on
Take a step at time
It's alright.
Even thru' this rain, I want to smile again

Don't hold back now.
And i've been thru' this before.
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here.
But I'll remember.
All those times you've bought me thru'.
I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am, Here I am.
Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along.
Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may.
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on.